Thursday, December 9, 2010

Personal post...

Hi, everyone. I really want to be posting in here every day, but I've had some stuff going on in my personal life and haven't had the time. I thought I'd put up a quick post explaining what's been going on. I am house/dog (the one who had the seizure is okay, by the way!) sitting for my mother tomorrow and Saturday so I hope to get a bunch of photos and reviews done and set to post. There is a wall of text ahead, so feel free to just skip this post if you have trouble reading this kind of babble.

Have I mentioned before that I have an eight month old? She's actually 8 months old today. She has congenital esotropia and we have had to patch her for a few hours a day to try to avoid development of amblyopia. The plan has always been to operate on her eyes once she is big enough to withstand anesthesia. She has recently started this really weird head bobbing thing, and her ophthalmologist noticed it at her last appointment. She's not sure what it could be, but said she will need multiple brain scans in Boston as soon as they can see us (February). I've made the mistake of googling this, and the word "tumor" was thrown around a lot on a few sites. I've been freaking out and crying a lot since the doctor told us it is a concern. Nobody in my life understands how hard this is for me. My husband and my mom keep telling me to stop dwelling on it, but how can I? This is my baby. I know I might be worrying about nothing, but I can't help it. I'm a stay at home mom and this little girl is my best friend. I'm tearing up just typing this. Sigh.

My husband and I have been fighting a lot lately, too. He's been really insensitive and hasn't been helping me with our daughter at all. He works long hours and doesn't seem to understand that I don't sit at home all day eating bonbons and watching tv. Being a stay at home parent is a lot of work. I need a break sometimes, too! My little girl is exclusively breastfed (she eats some solids now, too, though) so whenever my husband has her and doesn't want to deal with her squirming or fussing he throws out the "SHE'S HUNGRY!" card, because he knows that's the only thing he couldn't help her with so I'd have to take her. It's really frustrating.

On top of all of this I broke four of my nails down to the quick last night and ended up having to cut them all down. I have a growth product thing I will be reviewing (post about it will be up once I can determine results/lack of results) so I'm planning on using this annoyance as a chance to get a good review on this stuff.

I don't expect anyone has made it this far, but if you have, thank you. I appreciate all of you that read and follow this blog. I promise to be back on topic soon.


  1. I made it all the way through your post and thank you for the window into your personal life. I am so sorry you're having a rough patch right now. I'm sending you virtual hugs, fudge and a nice hot cuppa tea. :)
    I hope all goes well with your daughter. I know how hard it can be when they aren't well. Just try and take a deep breath, and focus on getting through one moment at a time. You can do it.

  2. I'm sorry you are going through a tough time. Your husband might have taken an easy way out, not wanting to deal with the issue nor your reaction to it. Try to talk it out and see if both sides could compromise a bit for each other. It's hard to have a sick child, so both parents are needed. Hugs.

  3. I hope things calm down in your world very soon!

  4. *hugs* Please feel better soon, with the holidays coming in! <3 Love to your daughter :) and u!